Mood:  energetic
Topic: Personal Life/Crisis
Wow, what a difference getting off work can do to a person. In the last entry, my mood was irritated... I didn't want to be at work, life irritated me, it was like people was fucking with me for no particular reason.

Fast forward 5 hours.... for once my mother didn't piss me off, Keira and Malik made me laugh and feel good, I blew out 3 teams in college football. See, life is not all that bad afterall.

Wait, before I go any further, let me send my condolences to Nate Brooks' family. I wish I was able to make it to his funeral, but I know that he's with the Lord now. Life is short, unpredictable, tough, and each day is not promised. Someone could be here today and gone tomorrow, in an instant. Death is a hard thing to deal with, especially when it is someone who we really care about, but death is in essence a part of life.

Ok, off sad subjects, on to something uplifting. I have decided to dedicate this academic year to Lincoln and academics. Damn, can you believe that I am a junior! Two more years to go! This also means I gotta get my shit straight!

Ok, GTG, I'm Gone, Leave a message and holla! Dude, go get a fucking life!!!!! Sike nah, I'm really serious!

Peace until later

Mood:  don't ask
Ok, I am having a tough time understanding this. There are 126 schools in the NCAA's Division I, but why is it that my school, Maryland, had to be placed on two years probation? Ok, so maybe I was a little lenient in suspending people for messing up, but damn, did they really have to hurt me like that? I just don't fucking understand... (ok, so I'm having a NCAA Football 2004 moment...please excuse me... if you were into the game as much as I am, you would be going crazy too... )

Well, nothing new to report.... I think. I just got thrown with a major project that's due on Monday and there's a lot of shit that has to be done... OMG... why me?

Holla back

Mood:  irritated
Some days I wonder why I am here. I don't really know where my life is going. I don't have any friends (Is that a good or bad thing?), haven't been in a "serious" or "decent" relationship with a girl in almost 5 years, no social life whatsoever, a very bland life. Some days I wonder, "What if I was born into a more affluent family, with parents who were not on drugs?" Would my life be any better than what it is today? Would it be worse? The same?

I know that I have to play with the deck of cards the Lord dealt me, but damn, does it have to be this fucking hard? Must I go everyday wondering, wishing that I was someone else, or the like? People say that the one thing that makes me unique is that I am not a get-with, acting differently just to fit in with a group of people. Hmmm, maybe one day I will understand this, but when will that day come? Only time will tell....

Well, since my life is "Bud Selig" boring, I guess the only good news I have to share with is that there are 40 days left until I return to Lincoln!!! yay! this nightmare is almost over!!!!

Today's shoutouts: God; the few select people I hang out with/talk to/chat with/play PS2 with from the pre-freshman program at Slowe; Ms. Jack-Jack; Grandma Nichols; Ms. Hardy; Keira & Malik

Today's Losers: my mother (isn't this everyday?); TMC (just guess what those intitals stand for); this damn car salesman who keeps calling me trying to severely ruin my credit;

Toodles! More later!!! holla at ya boy